He Watches Me

Loneliness permeates my soul...it envelopes me like a heavy fog...screaming silence deafens me.  My face is streaked with tears...my heart is heavy...my vision blurred.  It is Saturday.  It is beautiful outside....the sun shines brightly....the air is crisp.... still sadness overwhelms me.

I'm not where I thought I would be at this point in my life.  I thought I would have it all together. 

I don't.  I'm not sure I ever will.  I still struggle with depression, anxiety, loneliness...the list goes on and on and on.

BUT GOD...

I know this one thing...He is not surprised by where I am or how I'm feeling or what today looked like for me.  And He knew that the lyrics of this song would settle deep into my heart and warm my soul, so at just the right time He arranged for me to hear it today to remind me that He watches me....

His Eye Is On The Sparrow

Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,

Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heav’n and home,

When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He:

His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;

His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

• Refrain:
  I sing because I’m happy, I sing because I’m free,
  For His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

1. “Let not your heart be troubled,” His tender word I hear,
   And resting on His goodness, I lose my doubts and fears;
   Though by the path He leadeth, but one step I may see;
   His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
   His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.
2. Whenever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise,
   When songs give place to sighing, when hope within me dies,
   I draw the closer to Him, from care He sets me free;
   His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
   His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

I love how He loves me...how He reminds me ever so gently that He is near.  I am so very blessed.  In the silence I can hear His still small voice.  I am loved.