And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. (Romans 8:38, NLT)
I've had the most amazing journey this summer going through the study Reality Revealed. I have had one revelation after another...more chains of bondage dropping off...truly being set free. But the most amazing experience was doing My Life Map. I have to admit I was a bit apprehensive about the task. Mapping out my life over the past 40 plus years included some very dark places that I never really want to revisit. BUT GOD...
So, on Tuesday last week, I felt the Holy Spirit urging me to sit down and complete my life map. I didn't want to do it on Tuesday, I wanted to do it on Wednesday. But since I have been focusing on being obedient and leading a Spirit-led life, I pulled out all the materials and began to complete the map on Tuesday. As I mapped out the last 40 years, painful memories rose up, tears flowed, my heart ached. At the end of the map, I began to weep as a deep sense of love and joy filled me. God revealed very clearly how He had used every single one of those painful dark times to bring me to the place I am today. How He had knit me together knowing all I would experience and He wouldn't waste a single bit of it.
And there was still another revelation - perhaps the most amazing of all, that not only was I deeply loved by God...I could honestly say, having gone through most of life living with self-condemnation, insecurity and buying into the lies of the enemy that I was a failure, I was able to forgive myself and recognize that I finally love me. I saw Romans 8:28 come alive in my very own life and experience healing that has been almost 49 years in the making.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Healing...2010
It's been a long time since I've blogged....never really could stay on track with that. Nevertheless, I'm blogging today...so let's catch up.
In December, 2009, I found myself at a place that I could only see a faint light on the path that was ahead. I wasn't really depressed or down or even discouraged...just knew that life was going to change and I was ready to embrace it...no matter what. I was READY to live the abundant life that Jesus tells me about in John 10:10.
So, January 1, 2010, I proclaimed that this was my year of healing...there has been much healing over the last 12 years in my journey, but I knew this was going to be different....I had no idea how life changing my life was going to be.
I joined a Connect Group that was going through the study called The Lord's Table. God spoke to me in an amazing way through this study. He lovingly provided me with the "why" behind my "what". Revealing that I was turning to food for comfort, for company, for anything that I was lacking....when I realized that all I had to do was turn to Him during those times of loneliness, hurt, boredom, whatever...the weight began to fall off. He gave me a heart knowledge of who I am, where I came from and how healing and wholeness will only come through Him...not food, not friends, not stuff. I lost 40 pounds over the course of 5 months!! But honestly, it wasn't the weight loss that excited me...it was healing...the freedom...chains of bondage that had me bound for years, falling at my side.
God has continued to bring me healing throughout the summer with a study called Reality Revealed. He has brought me to a whole new place...I am experiencing the abundant life in a way that I never knew possible. I'll share later just how Reality Revealed has revealed to me His great love!!
In December, 2009, I found myself at a place that I could only see a faint light on the path that was ahead. I wasn't really depressed or down or even discouraged...just knew that life was going to change and I was ready to embrace it...no matter what. I was READY to live the abundant life that Jesus tells me about in John 10:10.
So, January 1, 2010, I proclaimed that this was my year of healing...there has been much healing over the last 12 years in my journey, but I knew this was going to be different....I had no idea how life changing my life was going to be.
I joined a Connect Group that was going through the study called The Lord's Table. God spoke to me in an amazing way through this study. He lovingly provided me with the "why" behind my "what". Revealing that I was turning to food for comfort, for company, for anything that I was lacking....when I realized that all I had to do was turn to Him during those times of loneliness, hurt, boredom, whatever...the weight began to fall off. He gave me a heart knowledge of who I am, where I came from and how healing and wholeness will only come through Him...not food, not friends, not stuff. I lost 40 pounds over the course of 5 months!! But honestly, it wasn't the weight loss that excited me...it was healing...the freedom...chains of bondage that had me bound for years, falling at my side.
God has continued to bring me healing throughout the summer with a study called Reality Revealed. He has brought me to a whole new place...I am experiencing the abundant life in a way that I never knew possible. I'll share later just how Reality Revealed has revealed to me His great love!!
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