And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. (Romans 8:38, NLT)
I've had the most amazing journey this summer going through the study Reality Revealed. I have had one revelation after another...more chains of bondage dropping off...truly being set free. But the most amazing experience was doing My Life Map. I have to admit I was a bit apprehensive about the task. Mapping out my life over the past 40 plus years included some very dark places that I never really want to revisit. BUT GOD...
So, on Tuesday last week, I felt the Holy Spirit urging me to sit down and complete my life map. I didn't want to do it on Tuesday, I wanted to do it on Wednesday. But since I have been focusing on being obedient and leading a Spirit-led life, I pulled out all the materials and began to complete the map on Tuesday. As I mapped out the last 40 years, painful memories rose up, tears flowed, my heart ached. At the end of the map, I began to weep as a deep sense of love and joy filled me. God revealed very clearly how He had used every single one of those painful dark times to bring me to the place I am today. How He had knit me together knowing all I would experience and He wouldn't waste a single bit of it.
And there was still another revelation - perhaps the most amazing of all, that not only was I deeply loved by God...I could honestly say, having gone through most of life living with self-condemnation, insecurity and buying into the lies of the enemy that I was a failure, I was able to forgive myself and recognize that I finally love me. I saw Romans 8:28 come alive in my very own life and experience healing that has been almost 49 years in the making.
wow!
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